Reading the current Discedo announcement has me feeling a little disappointed. Saying they aren't getting player plot requests, and then mine has been ignored for 3 months. I asked if I should resubmit it, which I did and expanded upon but... I have this fear it's going to get ignored again. I don't think one thing I have ever submitted to the plot suggestion has ever been replied to.

Hopefully after this I can finally do it, and maybe do more with Lute in general.

Alessandro is 100% go! I apped him and got in! it was... not a very good app.... I should have taken him back up a long time ago. Also the novels are a get! I shall probably have them in my hands sometime next week. ^^

Now to just get cracking on my back tags and get some rest.

So Discedos 4th wall event is going on, so I decided to bring out Alessandro for a little bit and comment to our Caterina and Able. I forgot how much I really do like him. I'm going to try and canon review, and since I found out he's actually in the manga finaly, I'm going to go read that. I still need to get the novels. This may be a long time coming though, since it's winter and my hours are cut during that time.

DAMNIT STORE! IF YOU HAVE EXACTLY THE SAME PICTURE AND BOX FOR LEFT AND RIGHT HAND WRIST BRACES PLEASE BE MAKING SOME SORT OF DISTINCTION BETWEEN THE TWO!!!

My wrist hurts and it sucks. I put it in a brace, but now I can't use mt right hand. I hope it goes away soon.

So I talked to the mods at Discedo about Hans, and we came to an arrangement. Their reasons were sound, and they made sense, I told them I had a plan for him, and wouldn't be apping above 6 characters. Seems like he should be fully processed next week. Naru thanked me for being calm and reasonable about it, that sort of makes me sad that it's expected for people to not be reasonable. Sure I was a little disappointed, but it's just a game, and since I did talk to her I could see where the mod team was coming from, and it made sense and was fair.

Meanwhile, I keep trying to look for a power adapter for my CD walkman, there are none! I tried to get a multi adapter but none of the fittings would fit it, and the one I found that seemed to be fore it is like, $20 or so. Since I only want the adapter so I can play CDs at work that price is too much. It sucks so much.

I got the Atelier Lise and Annie art book, I wonder if another book will be made after Atelier Lina, or maybe there will be another game after Lina so there can be a new dual art book. So far all the DS Atelier games are illustrated by the same guy Nao Watanuki who illustrates the Asura Cryin light novel series. I rather like his style, I even started watching Asura Cryin because I was curious, turns out to be a really fun series, confusing, but fun and interesting. It's funny to watch though, the main character Tomoharu and Annie have a huge likeness. Not that he so much looks like a girl, but that Annie looks so much like a boy! I also got the drama CD, I don't know why... but something about the cover having poor Hans in drag made me curious, though considering the picture again, he could just be gender bent....

I also decided to get Professor Layton and the Curious Village, I should have that in my hands in a few days. Now that concludes my spending until I get paid, I really shouldn't spend anymore. Last year I had savings, and this year I don't. But, I guess that's what happens when you spend everything at Fanime, well not really Fanime but the week I went down to California.... I already registered for Fanime this next year, and I keep waiting for the hotel booking to open up. I have to make sure I can cover all the costs by then in case I'm alone, which is what I try and do every year. Last year was an amazing surprise, this year I don't know if I'll be so fortunate. I'm so used to people flaking out on me at the last minute.

I'm a little sad, I decided to app Hans to Discedo, though sadly I put in my app a little after I dropped Laron, though I was planning on trying to app Hans before finally giving up on Laron. So my app for Hans, though fine, was turned down. I was told I app and drop people too quickly and that I needed better activity before I could have another character. I asked if it could be discussed so I'll just wait and see if I can talk to them about it. I did feel bad that I only had Laron for under three months, but it was just becoming agonizing to try and think of things for him to do. I think people found his posts boring, and... well, he sort of his a jaded and boring person when left to himself. In different circumstances I think he could have worked, but I just wasn't the person to do it right. He also was a little outside my comfort zone. And then there's Sealand who I dropped earlier, which was honestly a real long time coming, but, I had him for like, 6 months or more. The only drop before that was Maroa who was also around for about 5-6 months, and Nozomu who was, though true, just a month or less, I remembered I just fail and keeping him up. He only really works well for me if he's the only character I play.

I can't help but think that for activity they mean Ari and Silk and Lute, two of which aren't particularly personable or talk a lot without reason, and Lute who I keep waiting on approval of a plot. Been waiting for 2 months almost.... Though if I think about it Gremio could be more active, but I don't want to spam the comm with lists of what dinner will be and talking of Tir's dirty laundry. Okay, that just sort of leaves Kantarou as the only mostly active character, but he seriously is the most vocal, he's also the least shy and the one who's a jackass most the time. All he does is complain, and he got to know more people too. Still... everyone posts at least once every two weeks, and if not that never under twice a month. I know sometimes my over all activity isn't always high, but it's never completely dead.

I don't really know why I care this much, I sort of told myself if he got rejected I would just let it go, but somehow when it's like this it's harder. I want to do what I can to be able to play him, especially since I finally got to try out a conversation with him that lasted more than 3 posts.

So with the lack of any GUST representation in the RP world I decided to make a dressing room for it. Of course that would be a little limited, and I don't think it would flourish very well like that, so I added on NISA and Atlus to it. So far the Disgaea rooms and related have sort of been failing. I wonder why, Disgaea is so popular. Hopefully it won't scare people off that it's an Atelier theme. It would be fun to see Atelier characters and Ar Tonelico characters and Disgaea characters able to interact though.

atelierdressing

I think I'll pimp it out on RPS tomorrow and make a dear_mun post. I should also actually post in the comm to get it started too....

So the other day I got my box from Rosenqueen! They package so much better than Amazon, they had the box wrapped in bubble wrap so it couldn't move in the box. It's pretty cool, the box is cute and the two figures are really nice. It's kinda funny though, the box and everything is in Japanese, it's obvious they took the Japanese sets and just switched out the Japanese game for the US one.

The game itself is really short, I beat it last night in fact. You can replay it in a matter of hours if you skip all the dialogue too. But, you do need to replay it to get all the resorts, and you really do need to replay it to be able to win it properly. All in all I'm very glad I got it! Right now my DS games and PSP games are about equal.

Also, I am in love with Hans, he is pretty and a fun character. He gets annoyed with Annie a lot.



Now to wait for RODS **

I haven't been feeling to great so I mostly chose to spend my days off playing with the PSP. I finished Disgaea (which I cheated at), I think I got the good ending, but I'm not sure. I think since Laharl ended up staying normal it was. Now I can replay in Etna mode! Which will be legit. I have a growing soft spot for Dark Adonis/Beauty Danshaku/Mid-boss, it was a cute twist at the end.

PSN added Yggdra Union and Reviera to the store, so I got them both. So far I like them, they don't give you a lot of freedom but they both have good stories. I also downloaded Wild Arms XF though, I'm starting to wonder about the Wild Arms series, I question 4 a lot, and I don't know 5 yet, this I've only looked at long enough to save and quit. So, maybe it will warm up to me later.

Highly looking forward to Atelier Annie! It would have shipped out yesterday which was the release. And to think I finally got to have a premium edition! There are a few other none import DS games that look fun too coming out soon. Now if only company's could bring more of those over, then the DS would be a lot better. I can't count how many DS games are crappy movie tie ins, or related to Barbie or some other thing I have no interest in. There's no reason for the DS not to have a good RPG line outside of Final Fantasy, but if they only leave those games in Japan, it does no one any good!

For the first time in months I am excited about a DS game. Recently I've just enjoyed PSP so much more, and it's had the games I'm more interested, as well as being able to download PS1 games. But now there's Atelier Annie being released, and I got the special premium edition limited to 550 copies! ** Not to mention, sometime in January is suppose to be Ragnarok Online DS, I didn't even know it existed, let alone something like that would be localized.

I hope NIS continues to release Atelier games, it would be nice for them to go back and do some of the older ones, but I doubt they will. I'm also glad they kept the Japanese voice track for Atelier Annie, instead of getting rid of it in favor for English. Some people seem disappointed that there won't be an English track, but honestly they should be happy this game is here at all. And one of the great things about NIS (other than Disgaea) is that they do keep the Japanese voices as an option.

I am so freaking tired of working with my mom. She is annoying and never takes responsibility for the fact that, she likes it or not, is paid enough or not SHE IS THE ONE IN CHARGE! She needs to stop answering anything brought to her with "call Copper" Copper isn't in charge, he is grunt work! I am telling you! YOU!! I also can't call him if I'm on the damn phone with someone. It's not my fault we are three people with 5 buildings to take care of!

I hate everything, each day just makes me more aggravated and tired.

I get so embarrassed and self conscious when I try and explain things I'm thinking to people. It's like "What if they get mad at me?" "What if I upset them?" "What if they get annoyed?" "What if I'm completely wrong?" "What if I make a fool of myself?" It's so silly, but it's still there.

And then when doing these over a text based medium, you could mean to say it with a kind a confused tone, and come across bitchy, or something else to make what you said seem different than what you intended.

It's sort of funny, the internet is suppose to be where people are more open, yet, I find myself only just a little less shy than IRL. There's still this fear, this tightening before hitting the send button. It's almost worse on the internet, because at least IRL you can watch the person, you can change what your saying if they seem to be having a bad reaction, or not the one you were hoping for. You can read body language and skirt around things. But writing things up, its like you say everything on your mind, and then hope for a good and understanding reaction.

Sometimes I really really hate being so Shy, it can so easily come across as "you are an uncaring asshole", especially when you just stop talking to people, because you're not sure what to say next, or how to respond.. so saying nothing at all is better than saying something weird.

It's been pouring most of the day, and raining more or less none stop since last night. It's rather nice, though I consider when it's pouring to be more "normal" rain and less "pouring" rain. I wish it would rain harder in fact, but then I don't think anyone up here could deal with it.

I don't know why, but I caved in and got Mana Khemia for the PSP....

IT IS HORRIBLE!

It is a horrible port! The graphics are bad, dimmed, and sluggish. The loading times really are bad, and the Japanese audio was completely removed. The entire game plays slow and ugly. I haven't even looked into the network feature yet. It makes me question too, Disgaea is a beautiful port, it looks exactly as it would on the PS2, only with a wide screen. The graphics are lovely, the sound is awesome, it includes the Japanese audio. It's also like, 900mb. Meanwhile Mana Khemia, which is another sprite based game, is just awful and has a size of about 500-600mb. I have a feeling that if it had been between 800 and 900 (or even the 1.5gigs that a UMD is able to hold) it would have looked perfect and been able to have the Japanese voice. I don't know if the quality is GUSTs fault and that the Japanese one sucks just as much, or if this is NISs fault for a crappy domestic. I do know I've learned my lesson on letting my impulses on things I know better than to take over.

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ICS today has been pure and epic WIN! So much Mana Khemia. **

So after a long time of not really playing with my PSP (even though I just got Persona) I decided to go see what they have on the PSN, I like to keep a look out for PS games I always wanted but never got to buy and would cost a small fortune to get on ebay now. This required me to update media go as well as the firmware on the PSP. It seems one nice thing about the PSP Go is that there are now a lot of full PSP games you can download, and most of them (the older ones) are all under 20. In fact I discovered Disgaea for 15 as well as a few other titles I was interested in. This completely beats trying to buy the actual UMD, since I think Disgaea for PSP is at least 25 or so, even used. Though that beats it for DS that I haven't seen much less than 30.

Sadly as cool and instantly satisfying as this is, my memory stick is only about 8 gigs, maybe 4? I don't remember. I do have a 2gb one on the side, but there's really little you can put on that other than a few small things. But, it's still a nice option. I found myself debating between Disgaea and Mana Khemia, why Mana Khemia I can't even tell you. I own that game for PS2, have beat it once, am really close to beating it again, I have massively awesome save data, I don't know why I would want a new version that is inferior. So I got Disgaea. I wonder if I'll actually get somewhere in it unlike Disgaea 2.

What people are doing and current goals.

Discedo:

Kantarou: Kantarou is working on commission to improve peoples houses, he is also working with the safe house in order to keep people with dangerous powers subdued during the week they can't control themselves. Other than that he plays with Yuuko and visits Eirin and teases Haruka. (There is always something he can do.)

Ari: Ari spends most of his time at shinjis bar, or at the hospital. He doesn't talk much and usually just sits to the side and listens. (There are things he can do, but few he would willingly. Need someone to force him into something.)

Lute: Lute has way too much he's doing, could talk to more people and offer help. He's currently trying to be kind to kaoru and help her relax. He keeps an eye on Nill and provides water and other services. (There is always something he can do, though he could talk to more people.)

Silk: Silk spends most of his time doing nothing indoors. Currently while Layton is away he is with Meryl. (There is more he could do, should talk to more people and do more things)

Sealand: Sealand was trying to make the internet, but Gate vanished. He used to own England too, but England left and came back from an earlier time. Currently doesn't do too much. (Could talk to more people, and interact more.)

Gremio: He's a member of the police, as well as a worker at the soup kitchen. He does domestic chores at home and watches over Tir. He's a little confused as to who Kasumi is, but won't ask to much since she knows Tir and seems to know him as well. (Could talk to more people outside of his household, could be more active in the soup kitchen. Should start writing in his comm like he does in his dairy in the game.)

Laron: Works at the hospital, is currently making an observatory on the roof to investigate the stars. Will do chip removals, but hasn't said that in a while. Currently feeds off of Reavers and is leaning English from Eirin. (Could do more of something. Maybe organizing the hospital duties in some way, or clean up. Get him involved in something, priority.)

Luceti: Check the list, and start talking to people!

Youko: Found Kantarou and is moving in with him. Doesn't want to cook straight off the bat.

Michael: Has become adjusted, but hasn't been doing anything but watching those around him.

Vayne: Is trying to make some things.

Pluto IX:
Vayne: Has discovered Flay and Roxis are around. Has only been on the ship about a week. He's become Watari's assistant and has access to a lab. Soon he will make clothes and other useful accessories.

Comorbidities: Game is dying if not completely dead after the mod announcement.
Julius: No idea at all, proposed he and Ludwig stick together.

I keep feeling tired, not sleepy tired so much as just "I don't really care about anything" tired. I don't really feel like doing anything, and I just feel disconnected from most the people I talk to. I feel bored on top of it, which doesn't help.

I want to cut down on my RP, lately I haven't felt like replying much, and could do with less characters, mostly in Discedo. Sadly, I still like playing most of them. I do know that if I could bring myself to do it, Sealand and Laron would probably be first on the list, with Gremio and Ari next. I love Ari, but... it's sad he never talks to his canonmates at all. Sealand I just generally feel uninspired, and... I don't know what to do with Laron. I feel like I'm a bad player of him or something, he should comment around more, but, he just doesn't care about people who don't directly effect him in some way. x.x; I could always do a canon update for him I guess, he's a lot more personable when he becomes alive. Still, part of me thinks maybe it's because he's an unknown book character too.

I also want to do more interactions... I don't want to just assume things happen an unknown and unspoken way... I want to play out more situations, or at least discuss them with some depth in mind. When you don't do those little things, your characters continue to feel flat always.